((you're the best thing that has happened to me & the world will never take it away))

says the Lord ...

2008-09-03T22:02:00.002+08:00

"I am the one who made the beaches to be a border for the sea,

a border the water can never go past.
The waves may pound the beach, but they can't win over it.
They may roar, but they cannot go beyond it."

[Is not such a God to be reverently feared and worshiped?]
- Jeremiah 5:22 (NCV/Amplified)

omniscient

2008-04-05T23:50:00.002+08:00

hi :]

God answered my prayer. Praise Him! and i'm glad that i didn't resist for making my prayer came true :)

and i got to understand better that God is omniscient, that God is all knowing even what lies ahead of me, He knows. around feb, i came to realise that i need to stop spending too much time talking to a particular friend. so i made a decision to stop this habit. i could have chosen to believe that i am just being over-sensitive and ignore this burden in my heart to make the decision, but i choose to believe that all these thoughts come from God, and i want to make a decision that would be good for the days ahead, not just the now.

God didn't tell me what is going to happened, but He has given me a choice before it happens. i'm glad that i had made the right choice, if not i would be suffering from more heartaches, more confusions.

Praise God! because He cared so much about me that He has prevented me from getting hurt by the decision made by other people.

p/s: God loves not only me. He loves every man and woman.

pardon me for the hard-to-understand english. i can't think too much when i'm tired.
so yeah, good night. have a blessed sunday! :]

super strong God

2008-03-24T00:24:00.003+08:00

God You’re amazing, Heavens declare
The Glory and power, none can compare
I look in wonder, all You have made
Oceans and mountains, speak of Your name

Creation shouts of You

Super strong God, You love me
Super strong God, You made everything
So beautiful

Hillsong Kids

i am strong, because my God is strong.
there is nothing i cannot overcome,
because my God has overcame all my fears and all.

how i wished i could go back to where i came from, always cheerful.
but because of this, i know i've grown,
and that You're calling me out to a new place.

nonetheless, i will rejoice always,
because i know i have You right where i am standing.

thank You Father :)

only hope

2008-03-18T14:32:00.002+08:00

this song has been in my head all morning as i sleep.

[Mandy Moore]

There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.

So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now, you're my only hope.

I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

who to trust?

2008-03-16T23:26:00.004+08:00

i have no where to go,
except to stay in your arms,
and let your touch heal me from all my hurts.
only then i can soar and
guide the broken hearted to your loving grace.

:) this is what i got in a moment of inspiration, not from myself but God.

yeah. so on thurs i was busy doing stuff for Culture. but something happened, and it made my heart having this mixed feelings. i wanted someone whom i can tell this to, i hoped my "colleagues" treat me a little more kind and not do anything to add on to my pain. despite of asking my God to help me, i kinda question Him why is this thing happening to me.

after work, the guys and i went to play badminton. then i sat alone, with the rest one court away from me, looking at them and the people before me having their games. suddenly a voice from within told me that i should trust in God rather than on people. (only God can take away the pain. putting hope on people for joy, for remedy doesn't help, and it'll only deepen the cut on the heart.)-that was paraphrasing, i didn't thought of this much at that point of time. :)

i wanted to make sure it came from God, so i looked into the Word of God - Bible.

it is better to trust the Lord than to put confidence in people.
Psalm 118:8

*grins*

someone thought i was disappointed by my friends, but no, i am not. :)

i want to make the better choice, to trust in God. perhaps He is teaching me to make the better choice, so that i can be prepared for the future, in a place where i won't have my friends with me, but only God who would be with me to take care of my every needs.

...

okay, my result was out on fri. had a bad dream about the grade for my project, i got a G, ha. and it scared me out of my sleep. woke up and check my result. i got a C for the project module, yay! not really a good grade but if you know what happened to my project, you'll understand. for the other two modules i got B, yay! i have to say God has helped me though the exams.

first module: i got 50/100 for common test. and up till 1-2 weeks before the paper, i still couldn't understand what my lecturers were teaching about, and i missed the revision class, when the lecturer would give the study guide. thank God my helpful classmate was willing to share with me the points to study. and God helped me to spot questions. then the night before the paper, i hoped that God would not put the stuff which i know and those i don't know together in the same question, and it turned out the way. oh! and the lecturer actually sent us an email that contain questions from part of the paper and i only realised it on the night i had done the paper. so i can say God helped me, not the lecturer. :)

second module: ashamed to say, i missed lots of lectures, and the main part of my program did not work. but with God's grace, and i don't know how it happened, i got an B. :)

...

and then there was chi (pronounced as kai) zone outreach to areas around youth park. all i can say is God is doing amazing works at the peoples' lifes, as well as ours'. more details please refer to chi members' blog.

and alpha zone meeting, youth service, sunday service were all awesome.

i had a wonderful weekend!

what a long post.

i got tagged

2008-03-16T23:25:00.003+08:00

5 things found in my bag
♥ bible
♥ journal
♥ book - speak to my heart, God - Kay Arthur
♥ church bulletin
♥ empty water bottle

5 favourite things in my room
♥ "my" queen sized bed
♥ kirouchi - the monkey
♥ amilin's NLT bible
♥ any blanket
♥ maybe.. my lappy

5 things I’ve always wanted to do
♥ splurge
♥ play an instrument
♥ go overseas for a holiday
♥ be a photographer
♥ impact people around me

5 things I’m currently into
♥ God
♥ blogging
♥ million star 2 (超级星光大道2) - a show like american idol
♥ rubik's cube
♥ making choco-cornflakes

5 people I’m tagging
♥ anyone who's interested :)

Now I Know

2008-03-08T02:33:00.004+08:00

now i know,
when i feel all alone,
God is with me.

now i know,
when i grief,
i can still praise and worship
the One who is with me.

now i know,
when i am alone in grief,
and singing out to Him in praise and worship,
He'll let all my tears flow,
then wiped it with His love,
giving me joy.

now i know,
i am Jesus' friend.
i am not alone when i am lonely,
He is right there with me,
listening to my heart cry,
and giving me the strength to move on.

and i know,
Jesus wants to listen to you too.
He says

"Come to me,
all you who are weary and burdened,
and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me,
for I am gentle and humble in heart,
and you will find rest for your souls.
For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

just like what He has done with me tonight.

Parable of the Vineyard Workers

2008-03-05T14:04:00.008+08:00

yeah. again i was on my way to school for prayer group. i thought back and remembered what i told ben yesterday, about the outreach we are doing, only about 6 of us are doing most of the work, so i said this is OUR project. but he said the rest still can help us on the day of outreach, so it means the rest will still be part of this outreach when they join, even if they didn't help with the preparation. part of me thought it was unfair, but the other part of me thinks that his words do make some sense.

as i was still in my thoughts, this story Jesus told his disciples came to me ...

Matthew 20

“For the Kingdom of Heaven is like the landowner who went out early one morning to hire workers for his vineyard. 2 He agreed to pay the normal daily wage and sent them out to work.

3 “At nine o’clock in the morning he was passing through the marketplace and saw some people standing around doing nothing. 4 So he hired them, telling them he would pay them whatever was right at the end of the day. 5 So they went to work in the vineyard. At noon and again at three o’clock he did the same thing.

6 “At five o’clock that afternoon he was in town again and saw some more people standing around. He asked them, ‘Why haven’t you been working today?’

7 “They replied, ‘Because no one hired us.’

“The landowner told them, ‘Then go out and join the others in my vineyard.’

8 “That evening he told the foreman to call the workers in and pay them, beginning with the last workers first. 9 When those hired at five o’clock were paid, each received a full day’s wage. 10 When those hired first came to get their pay, they assumed they would receive more. But they, too, were paid a day’s wage. 11 When they received their pay, they protested to the owner, 12 ‘Those people worked only one hour, and yet you’ve paid them just as much as you paid us who worked all day in the scorching heat.’
13 “He answered one of them, ‘Friend, I haven’t been unfair! Didn’t you agree to work all day for the usual wage? 14 Take your money and go. I wanted to pay this last worker the same as you. 15 Is it against the law for me to do what I want with my money? Should you be jealous because I am kind to others?’
16 “So those who are last now will be first then, and those who are first will be last.”

it didn't take much time for me to find this story, i found it when i opened my bible. ha.

my original motive for doing is outreach is to help others and i didn't thought of making a name for myself so that other's can know what i've done. but somehow, my mind got distorted and my heart became "impure".

i thank God for His reminder and teachings that has stopped me from having that ugly thought, and make me refocus on my original motive in doing His work.

hmmm. i feel that i need to say this...

to the many prayer groups out there! don't be so enthu about your schools' outreach yet be distracted by other stuff and get your focus messed up with impure desires. even if the outreach is a success, God will not be pleased because your heart is not with Him.

so yeah. hope my readers enjoy reading this and leave any comments you have any. ha. you don't have to if you don't want. i'm just joking. la la la. ha ha ha. i am crazy. :)

may all PG outreach be a success and God be pleased by the hearts of many!

1 Corinthians 10:13

2008-03-04T23:56:00.005+08:00

when i was on the bus on the way to school for prayer group, i was reminded and disgusted by what i did in the past. i couldn't stop the images of memory running in my head, i wished to stop but for that moment i was stuck, i didn't try to do anything to stop my thoughts from running.

but God provided me a way out of this "temptation" i faced. i looked down at my bag, and the word "bible" came to my head. i smiled and decide to continued to read from where i stopped. immediately my head was filled with His word and not on other things.

i thanked God for His faithfulness as i remained faithful in Him.

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

yeah. if God has brought me out of the situation i faced, surely He will do the same for you, because there is no favouritism in His eyes.

:]

2008-02-10T20:14:00.000+08:00

for a moment i thought i blacked out, or was it just an illusion?

tired.

All I Need Is You

2008-02-09T01:14:00.000+08:00

(Hillsong United)
Left my fear by the side of the road
Hear You speak
Won't let go
Fall to my knees as I lift my hands to pray

Got every reason to be here again
Father's love that draws me in
And all my eyes wanna see is a glimpse of You

One more day and it's not the same
Your spirit calls my heart to sing
Drawn to the voice of my Saviour once again
Where would my soul be without Your Son
Gave His life to save the earth
Rest in the thought that You're watching over me

All I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is you Lord

~
hmmm. did i post this song before? i think so, but i can't find.

so today is (/yesterday was) chu er - second day of cny. unlike previous years, my relatives from my mum's side would come to visit on this day. so both my sis and sis2's hubby and tingwei! went to esplanade to walk walk :D nice time spent together walking and eating and talking :)

reached home about 6plus, eat and online for awhile. watched the 7pm show, then watched Shaolin Soccer, a comedy, but i still felt very bored, very lifeless. blah.

then i gave up hope on tv and decide to do read the Word of God - Bible :)

Exodus 34:14 You must worship no other gods, but only the Lord, for he is a God who is passionate about his relationship with you.

indeed! when i decide to go to him and let his word speak to me, i felt relieved. those bored/lifeless feelings left. this isn't the first time, and definitely not the last time, i felt this way. there were times i felt angry/disappointed, and as i write down my feelings on my journal, i would feel calmed and even remember the good things that happened in the day.

yes. this is one of the reasons of why I Love God! ;P

hmmm. am i making sense to you? :D

2008-01-31T12:35:00.000+08:00

yeah, i had written my second letter already. but they were only drafts. and i need their address. hmmm.

:]

hi friends

2008-01-31T02:45:00.000+08:00

are you still with me?
:\

Blood Donation 2008

2008-01-19T00:34:00.000+08:00

Dear students,

The Red Cross Humanitarian Chapter - Ngee Ann, together with the Students' Union and Radio HeatWave, will be holding their first Blood Donation Drive for this year as follows :
Date: 30 and 31 January and 1 February 2008
Time: 12.00 noon to 6.00pm daily
Venue: Former NTUC Child Care Centre
(Block 16-01-01 - next to the Swimming Pool's Snack Bar)

...

With the festive period just around the corner - Chinese New Year, being a crucial time for the Blood Bank as few donors come forth during the festive period, we would like to appeal to you, our students, to come forward to pledge and donate blood towards a worthy cause.

We look forward to your help. Together, we can raise more "PINTS" and "RED PACKETS"!

Thank you.

Red Cross Humanitarian Chapter, Students' Union and Radio HeatWave
Ngee Ann Polytechnic

can accompany me to join? pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :)

you reign

2008-01-17T21:41:00.000+08:00

(Hillsong United [NextGen])

What could stand before you,
As you chose to embrace,
A cross so undeserved you took for me,
The wait of sin upon you,
When you offered your life,
As you walked the streets of men, with fading strength,

How could we live,
But not see, your sacrifice, your glory

(Chorus)
You reign, You reign,
Over everything Lord you reign,
With power and justice divine,
Over everything Lord you reign

What was your last thought,
As you drew your last breath,
Where the victory was yours for us to see,
And all will know the truth,
As we live by our grace, every praise to you alone,

How could we live,
But not see, your sacrifice, your glory

(Bridge)
See now the King of glory,
Love of God, become my calling,
Father I surrender,
All I am, to you forever

waiting

2008-01-16T14:52:00.000+08:00

last night i got so engrossed in reading "a woman after God's own heart" by elizabeth george that i didn't want to stop reading, but i had to, cus it was VERY late. but when i decided to sleep, i can't. then i thought, perhaps i can have quiet time in my school's sports hall, like in front of the running track, the audience seat. and i can run before i start that. so good.

i didn't have lunch today and decided to go take a look and try out the new place. yeah, it was cool. not much interference, not too cold or too hot, just that i didn't bring my stuff (bible and pen and notebook). nonetheless, i prayed and sang a few songs. yeah, i wanna go there more often.

okay, vina is here. and we are going to do something to our hair now.

ciao!

shoutout

2008-01-14T11:25:00.000+08:00

i wish i could get out of this place.

proof

2008-01-13T00:17:00.000+08:00

hello.

as reagan and i were talking about the beatbox challenge for culture* spot, about how super duper cool and pro was asher, and how tyco jun hao was, ...

reagan says:
NVM
i wanna arrange for testimony and hopefully got running man challenge HAHA

see that?

shangmin says:
haha.. so i'll tell joses tmr ar..
(blah..)

reagan says:
OK
promise?
(blah..)
must tell him, because im not a natural beatboxer..

not wanting to forget to tell joses about reagan's desire to share what God has done in his life and his craving to show off his running man talent, i said i had save an sms just in case i really forget about this.

reagan says:
RUNNING MAN CHALLENGE
(to save space, smin didn't put up the next repeated 98 lines )

shangmin says:
haha
okay
tt shows how much u want it
good

so, this is proof.

is reagan really gonna be up there for culture* spot?

stay tune @ culture* spot @ culture* service @ 4.30pm sharp every saturday (unless there is no service)

:D

shoutout

2008-01-07T11:50:00.000+08:00

good mornoon (morning/afternoon)

i think i am fortunate to have friends who has good cameras, who satisfy (i forgot how to spell this word until..) my desire to take photos wherever i go.

yeah!

when god whispers your name

2008-01-03T01:12:00.000+08:00

It’s quiet. It’s early. My coffee is hot. The sky is still black. The world is still asleep. The day is coming.

In a few moments the day will arrive. It will roar down the track with the rising of the sun. The stillness of the dawn will be exchanged for the noise of the day. The calm of solitude will be replaced by the pounding pace of the human race. The refuge of the early morning will be invaded by decisions to be made and deadlines to be met.

For the next twelve hours I will be exposed to the day’s demands. It is now that I must make a choice. Because of Calvary, I’m free to choose. And so I choose.

I choose love
No occasion justifies hatred; no injustice warrants bitterness.
I choose love.
Today I will love God and what God loves.

I choose joy
I will invite my God to be the God of circumstance.
I will refuse the temptation to be cynical ... the tool of the lazy thinker.
I will refuse to see people as anything less than human beings, created by God.
I will refuse to see any problem as anything less than an opportunity to see God.

I choose peace
I will live forgiven.
I will forgive so that I may live.

I choose patience
I will overlook the inconveniences of the world.
Instead of cursing the one who takes my place, I’ll invite him to do so.
Rather than complain that the wait is too long, I will thank God for a moment to pray.
Instead of clinching my fist at new assignments, I will face them with joy and courage.

I choose kindness
I will be kind to the poor, for they are alone.
Kind to the rich for they are afraid.
And kind to the unkind, for such is how God has treated me.

I choose goodness
I will go without a dollar before I take a dishonest one.
I will be overlooked before I will boast.
I will confess before I will accuse.
I choose goodness.

I choose faithfulness
Today I will keep my promises.
My debtors will not regret their trust.
My associates will not question my word.
My wife will not question my love.
And my children will never fear that their father will not come home.

I choose gentleness
Nothing is won by force. I choose to be gentle.
If I raise my voice may it be only in praise.
If I clench my fist, may it be only in prayer.
If I make a demand, may it be only of myself.

I choose self-control
I am a spiritual being.
After this body is dead, my spirit will soar.
I refuse to let what will rot, rule the eternal.
I choose self -control.
I will be drunk only by joy.
I will be impassioned only by my faith.
I will be influenced only by God.
I will be taught only by Christ.
I choose self-control.

Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.
To these I commit my day.
If I succeed, I will give thanks.
If I fail, I will seek his grace.
And then, when this day is done,
I will place my head on my pillow and rest.

[Max Lucado]

joyful

2007-12-25T23:19:00.000+08:00

merry christmas to all!

this is my second attempt to tell people reading my blog about youth camp.

yeah! it was good. despite getting fourth, which is the last place, for tribal wars, it was great! especially when you know that our malay friend enjoyed himself in a christian camp, getting to know friends who would cheer for him. and also being able to stay united as a tribe, despite all the careless mistakes that we made during games and stuff. SIMEON is way too cool.

(yeah, starting with the yellow tee girl, monica, elaine, rochelle, jia min, mei ling, felicia, jeelian, eleanor, and moving back from the yellow tee guy, jonathan, joshua, shawn, ephraim, justin, keith, jun hao, joel. missing sufian)

we even had pastor adrian and jack in the photo with us. yeah, those 2 that are not facing the camera. :P

(see the guy on the most far right, in fact The guy in the photo, he's sufian :))

yeah. Simeon rock!
& Culture too!
& God rules!

ok, here's the fun thing.

after camp, we had post camp gathering for the leaders and directors and pastors at joshua's house. we had this planned before camp ya. we were supposed to be someone's secret santa, meaning to buy that someone a present. i think i was so fooooortunate to be mr joses secret santa. to cut long story short, i managed to tricked him and a few other guys by the box i used for the gift. yeah, what a brilliant idea.

it's a mee sua box! with a red ribbon badly done by me. yeah, way to go smin! :D

oh, and my secret santa was ian, yeah! and he bought me a nice tee, double yeah!

(and i think i look like mr bean in this photo ):)

yeah, i think that's all for now.

good night!

Be Excited

2007-12-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

woo hoo!

youth camp is finally here, finally!

i won't be online from wed to sat, so sms me!

for my dear friends who wish they could come for camp,
who wish to experience something extraordinary,
who wants to find answers to your life's most difficult question,
good news!

shang min would like to invite you to
camp UNLEASHED
at NAtional Community Leadership Institute
for our night services
on wednesday, thursday, friday evening
6pm - 9.30pm

feel free to come, leave an sms to let me know if u're coming
i'll get back to u asap.
:)

p/s: my tribe is gonna be the best

new

2007-12-13T14:08:00.000+08:00

green.
flowers.
butterflies.
:)

Second Chance

2007-12-13T02:30:00.000+08:00

(Hillsong United)

You called my name
Reached out Your hand
Restored my life
And I was redeemed
The moment You entered my life

Amazing grace
Christ gave that day
My life was changed
Went from my shoulders
Fell the weight of my sin

So it’s with everything I am
I reach out for Your hand
The hope that changed a second chance I’ve gained
On You I throw my life
Casting all my fears aside
How could greater love than this
Ever possibly exist

Consume my thoughts
As I rest in You
I’m now in love with a Saviour
Bearing the marks of His love

So I wait upon You now
With my hands released to You
Where a little faith’s enough
To see mountains lift and move
Yeah I wait upon You now
Dedicated to Your will
To this love that will remain
A love that never fails

p/s: i need you.

shout out

2007-11-15T02:19:00.000+08:00

hello!

i am very very very tired.

yawn

:)

i'm tired.
hold me.

Hang On

2007-11-04T22:33:00.000+08:00

I don't know how I got to where I am
All I know is that I want to go back
to the moment when I fell in love with grace
and I hear You whisper

Hang on, I know your hope seems gone
Hang on, sometimes the heartache makes you strong

I try my best to pray but my heart won't move
And all the words the saints say, they just don't help
I want to go back to when I first called out Your name
and I hear You whisper

Hang on, I know your hope seems gone
Hang on, sometimes the heartache makes you strong
Remember the first time love turned you around

(Mainstay)

cones & rods

2007-10-17T14:47:00.000+08:00

yoo hoo!

this is something i learned during lesson today.

in the human retina, there are 2 types of receptors. cones and rods.

number of cone cells: about 6 to 7 million.
photopic vision - enable us to see things and colours during the day under normal lighting.

number of rod cells: about 75 to 150 million.
scotopic vision - enable us to see under dim light.

i'm glad that i am able to see the beautiful colours and all of God's creation. but i'm even more thankful for the ability to see under dim light.

similarly, i think it is like having the ability to see where we are going in our life. the scotopic vision is what we need so that we are enabled to find the correct way in this world where there are a lot of distractions and people doing different kinds of things to live their life. if we didn't have enough rods, we won't be able to do that. in fact, we will be in confusion, feeling lost and fearful of the surrounding. we might be following others and it may not lead to our destination. that's why we have so many rods in our retina, isn't it? providing us with the vision, wisdom and discernment so that we be clear and watch the path we are taking on, making sure we won't go to the wrong direction and able to find the exit of darkness.

:)

Battlefield of the mind

2007-10-16T23:29:00.000+08:00

yoo hoo!

wondering if gordy has got my sms. been procrastinating for the past few days if i were to send him the msg i had already thought since saturday nite.

"Sometimes God leads us the hard way instead of the easy way, because He is doing a work in us. How will we ever learn to lean on Him, if everything in our lives is so easy that we can handle it by ourselves?

God led the Children of Israel the long, hard way because they were still cowards, and He had to do a work in them to prepare them for the battles they would face in the Promised Land.

Most people think that entering the Promised Land means no more battles, but that is incorrect. If you read the accounts of what took place after the Israelites crossed the Jordan River and went in to possess the land of promise, you will see that they fought one battle after another. But they won all those battles fought in God's strength and under His direction.

God led them the longer, harder route even though there was a shorter, easier one because He knew they were not ready for the battles they would face in possessing the land. He was concerned that when they saw the enemy, they might run back to Egypt, so He took them the harder way to teach them Who He was and that they could not depend on themselves.

When a person is going through a hard time, his mind wants to give up. Satan knows that if he can defeat us in our mind, he can defeat us in our experience. That's why it is so important that we not lose heart, grow weary and faint."

Battlefield of the mind
Joyce Meyer
Chap 18 - Wilderness #3 "Please make everything easy; I can't take it if things are too hard!"

btw, i didn't send him this msg laaa. haha. but hope that this can be an encouragement to anyone who reads this. including myself :D

and oh, both my new class have quite a number of people i don't wish to study with. *sad* there's a bit of fear, yo. i hope everything will be ok. and those feelings will fade away as i get to know them better.

p.s; there's no time to slack now. gonna finish my project very soon.
p.p.s; i gonna graduate soon. :D
p.p.p.s; i gonna miss gordy and gen feng.
p.p.p.p.s; hahahahahahaha. i have blogged!

byeee!

dropping by

2007-09-24T14:45:00.000+08:00

aloha!

*smiles*

love you, bye bye!
(:x)

blogthings

2007-09-13T13:23:00.000+08:00

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.

Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul.

You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.

Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.

You have great vision and can be very insightful.

In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.

Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.

You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

You Are a Natural Beauty!

You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about...

One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup

That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though

You have style, but for you, style is effortless

What Type of Beauty Are You?

You Scored an A

You got 10/10 questions correct.

It's pretty obvious that you don't make basic grammatical errors.

If anything, you're annoyed when people make simple mistakes on their blogs.

As far as people with bad grammar go, you know they're only human.

And it's humanity and its current condition that truly disturb you sometimes.

The It's Its There Their They're Quiz

You Are an Okay Student

You know how to get by school, but your heart isn't always in it.

Motivation is a problem for you. Maybe you need to study something more exciting!

Are You a Good Student?

Your Emoticon is Cool

You're not feeling particularly up or down, just relaxed and calm. You're ready for whatever is going to happen next!

What Emoticon Best Represents You Right Now?

You Are Pretty Happy

You generally have a happy, fulfilling life.

But things could be a little better, and deep down, you know it.

Maybe you need more supportive friends or a more challenging career.

Something is preventing you from being totally happy. You just need to figure out what it is!

How Happy Are You, Really?

:)

2007-09-12T22:45:00.001+08:00

haha. was thinking about a few things i like on the way home after mentoring with nadia and vina just now. one of the many is that i like to watch tv with my brother. also, i like to help him to buy dinner because he pays for my dinner (and milk tea) too. and he will give me money if i ask. and blah.. :P

then when i was unlocking the door, i saw my dad and i greeted "papa :)". then i saw my brother looking from the kitchen i "uhm chio" (laughed secretly to myself) and greeted "korkor :)". haha. he was like surprised that i called him that and said that it's been a long time i called him in that way. i uhm chio again and said "shi meh?" (oh really?) haha.

but true enough, it's been quite a long while since i have greeted my brother and not on a regularly basis for my parents and ah mah and once in a blue moon for my sister. ooooh. :(

hai yo. must remind myself to do it on daily basis, ya? no matter how tired i may be.
;)

Psalm 25

2007-09-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

(New International Version)
1 To you, O LORD, I lift up my soul;

2 in you I trust, O my God.
Do not let me be put to shame,
nor let my enemies triumph over me.

3 No one whose hope is in you
will ever be put to shame,
but they will be put to shame
who are treacherous without excuse.

4 Show me your ways, O LORD,
teach me your paths;

5 guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long.

6 Remember, O LORD, your great mercy and love,
for they are from of old.

7 Remember not the sins of my youth
and my rebellious ways;
according to your love remember me,
for you are good, O LORD.

8 Good and upright is the LORD;
therefore he instructs sinners in his ways.

9 He guides the humble in what is right
and teaches them his way.

10 All the ways of the LORD are loving and faithful
for those who keep the demands of his covenant.

11 For the sake of your name, O LORD,
forgive my iniquity, though it is great.

12 Who, then, is the man that fears the LORD ?
He will instruct him in the way chosen for him.

13 He will spend his days in prosperity,
and his descendants will inherit the land.

14 The LORD confides in those who fear him;
he makes his covenant known to them.

15 My eyes are ever on the LORD,
for only he will release my feet from the snare.

16 Turn to me and be gracious to me,
for I am lonely and afflicted.

17 The troubles of my heart have multiplied;
free me from my anguish.

18 Look upon my affliction and my distress
and take away all my sins.

19 See how my enemies have increased
and how fiercely they hate me!

20 Guard my life and rescue me;
let me not be put to shame,
for I take refuge in you.

21 May integrity and uprightness protect me,
because my hope is in you.

22 Redeem Israel, O God,
from all their troubles!

Amen.

Rainbow

2007-09-09T02:08:00.000+08:00

meaning caused by the reflection and refraction of sunlight by droplets of rain, a rainbow often appears after the passing of a thunderstorm, marking its end. The bow is coloured by the division of sunlight into its primary colours. The rainbow is served to remind Israel and her God of His convenant with Noah to never again destroy the earth by flooding (Genesis 9:8-17).
[Holman Illustrated Pocket Bible Dictionary]

(New Living Translation)

8 Then God told Noah and his sons, 9 “I hereby confirm my covenant with you and your descendants, 10 and with all the animals that were on the boat with you—the birds, the livestock, and all the wild animals—every living creature on earth. 11 Yes, I am confirming my covenant with you. Never again will floodwaters kill all living creatures; never again will a flood destroy the earth.”

12 Then God said, “I am giving you a sign of my covenant with you and with all living creatures, for all generations to come. 13 I have placed my rainbow in the clouds. It is the sign of my covenant with you and with all the earth. 14 When I send clouds over the earth, the rainbow will appear in the clouds, 15 and I will remember my covenant with you and with all living creatures. Never again will the floodwaters destroy all life. 16 When I see the rainbow in the clouds, I will remember the eternal covenant between God and every living creature on earth.” 17 Then God said to Noah, “Yes, this rainbow is the sign of the covenant I am confirming with all the creatures on earth.”

(i am still waiting) :]

-

2007-09-03T00:36:00.000+08:00

eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar this is one of the nights that i feel like crying for myself eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar eeee yar

playing at toys r us

2007-08-25T05:42:00.001+08:00

taken: Sunday, August 19, 2007, 5:02 PM

was playing at toys r us with the voice toy thingy. haha.

enjoy!

ting wei caught put-put

2007-08-25T05:18:00.001+08:00

taken on Thursday, June 21, 2007, 11:27:30 AM

facebook

2007-08-24T01:40:00.001+08:00

i have.

princess ting wei @ today

2007-08-23T13:24:00.000+08:00

:)(::)(::)(::)(::)(::)(::)(::)(::)(::)(::)(::)(::)(::)(::)

MIRACLES!

2007-08-20T01:44:00.001+08:00

Do you need a miracle?
a healing?
a breakthrough?

Do you want a miracle to happen in your life?
Do you want a healing, physically/mentally/emotionally?
Do you need a breakthrough in family/relationship/finance?
or even kicking your own habits/addictions?
Are you lost in finding your direction to life?
Do you want to find security and peace?
Do you want any of these?

can i invite you, all of my dear friends,
or even you are just a passerby, to

MIRACLES!

Saturday, 15 Sept 2007
7.30pm @ Victoria Concert Hall

or

Sunday, 16 Sept 2007
11am @ Orchard Hotel Ballroom

contact myself or the organiser for more information.

Hope to see you there!
;)

awake in a rainy morning

2007-08-16T08:55:00.000+08:00

oh dear! i should be sleeping now! it's so nice and cooling. why am i awake?

because princess ting wei is here. she was crying so bitterly. poor thing. poor me. HAHA

oh! did i tell you she can flip her body by herself? yahahaha.

this auntie shang min gonna train her to crawl. heh. did i also tell you she's a fast learner?

oh. haha. auntie amilin is singing to the children's songs. i can't see her now. but i think she's making funny faces at baby. shaking her butt with the music. :p

good morning all :)

happy happy

2007-08-14T22:57:00.000+08:00

i thank God for saving me from my situation.

for reaching out His hand to rescue me.

for directing me back to the right way.

i thank God for what He has done for me.

i thank God for not giving up on me.

i thank God for forgiving me

and bless me even more when i went back to Him.

i thank God for His grace and mercy.

i thank God for His guidance.

i thank God for bringing me closer to Him.

i thank God for who i am today.

i want to always remember His love for me.

and nothing could take Him away from me.

a glimpse of Culture★

2007-08-05T22:41:00.000+08:00

HAHA

2007-08-02T13:51:00.001+08:00

that's what i saw in my friendster homepage.

A Woman's Question

2007-08-02T02:45:00.000+08:00

[Written in reply to a man's poetic unfolding of what he conceived to be a woman's duty.]

Do you know you have asked for the costliest thing
Ever made by the hand above—
A woman's heart, and a woman's life
And a woman's wonderful love?

Do you know you have asked for this priceless thing
As a child might ask for a toy,
Demanding what others have died to win,
With the reckless dash of a boy?

You have written my lesson of duty out,
Man-like you have questioned me;
Now stand at the bar of my woman's soul
Until I shall question thee.

You require your mutton shall always be hot,
Your socks and your shirt be whole;
I require your heart to be true as God's stars,
And as pure as heaven your soul.

You require a cook for your mutton and beef;
I require a far better thing.
A seamstress you're wanting for socks and shirts;
I look for a man and a king.

A king for the beautiful realm called home,
And a man that the maker, God,
Shall look upon as he did the first
And say, "It is very good."

I am fair and young, but the rose will fade
From my soft, young cheek one day,
Will you love me then 'mid the falling leaves,
As you did 'mid the bloom of May?

Is your heart an ocean so strong and deep,
I may launch my all on its tide?
A loving woman finds heaven or hell
On the day she is made a bride.

I require all things that are grand and true,
All things that a man should be;
If you give all this, I would stake my life
To be all you demand of me.

If you cannot do this — a laundress and cook
You can hire, with little to pay,
But a woman's heart and a woman's life
Are not to be won that way.

~ Mary T. Lathrap (1838-1895)

Psalm 101

2007-08-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

A psalm of David.

1 I will sing of your love and justice, Lord.
I will praise you with songs.

2 I will be careful to live a blameless life—
when will you come to help me?
I will lead a life of integrity
in my own home.

3 I will refuse to look at
anything vile and vulgar.
I hate all who deal crookedly;
I will have nothing to do with them.

4 I will reject perverse ideas
and stay away from every evil.

5 I will not tolerate people who slander their neighbors.
I will not endure conceit and pride.

6 I will search for faithful people
to be my companions.
Only those who are above reproach
will be allowed to serve me.

7 I will not allow deceivers to serve in my house,
and liars will not stay in my presence.

8 My daily task will be to ferret out the wicked
and free the city of the Lord from their grip.

happy birthday shangmin !!

2007-07-31T10:53:00.000+08:00

i'm finally 19!

and panel review is finally over~! we really gotta buck up ya.

last night dinner with my dear EXL and pastor and directors and the 2nd tier leaders were great! i love my presents and i definitely love their companion.

waaa~ thanks for all the birthday wishes. i think there will be more to come :P

stay tuned for the photos!

see ya~

-

2007-07-23T22:22:00.000+08:00

Subject: PD1 Panel Review Assessment on 31 July, Tues at 9am

Hi students,

The Panel Review will be held as above. The same review team will be looking at your projects. Please take note.

Let's have a trial run on Monday 30 July at 10 am for both groups.

regards
Koh Siew Kheng | Lecturer | SoE/ECE

100th post; what will we do in heaven?

2007-07-19T02:18:00.000+08:00

one question.

" The first one is serving (Revelation 22:3). Perhaps we'll explore an unknown corner of the universe, or, as C. S. Lewis suggests, govern a distant star. Whatever that service may entail, there will be no sense of inadequacy, no weakness, no weariness. In heaven we'll have minds and bodies equal to the task to which we're assigned.

The second activity is seeing: We "shall see His face" (v.4). "Now we see in a mirror, dimly" (1 Corinthians 13:12), but in heaven we shall see our Savior face to face, and we "shall be like Him" (1 John 3:2). This is what Revelation 22:4 means when it says, "His name shall be on their foreheads." The name of God represents His perfect character, so to bear His name means to be like Him. In heaven we will never again struggle with sin but will reflect the beauty of His holiness forever.

Finally, there is reigning. We shall serve our King by ruling and reigning with Him "forever and ever" (v.5)"

[extracted from rbc.org]

"Jesus said, "You shall worship the Lord your God, and Him only you shall serve" (Matthew 4:10). It's interesting to note that Jesus did not say praise and serve. Even the briefest examination of the word praise in the Bible quickly shows it's a verbal thing and that for the most part singing. Worship however is from the heart. Worship manifests itself in praise. Serving God is worship and Scripture is clear we will serve God in Heaven. "His servants will serve Him" (Revelation 22:3)."

[extracted from gotquestions.org]

and i say, "oooooh :D"

itai!

2007-07-12T12:13:00.000+08:00

(pain)
:(

and it's so pain that i have to ask my classmate buy lunch for me.
neh heh.
so pain *pouts*

random

2007-07-10T02:43:00.000+08:00

i am still alive
:)

yoo hoo!

2007-06-26T08:22:00.000+08:00

today is the second of school. and already i'm looking forward to the holidays coming up in 2 months time. though i think i gonna have to come back to school everyday for my FYP. boo hoo.

first day of school was dull yet fun, sad yet glad.

glad because. i got a C for my panel review last term. and it's a low C. my group mates got a high C. i shouldn't be sad actually, cause i should get a D instead. it's because my poor attendance - late, absent. in NP 10mins late is consider late. after which is absent. am i right? haha. due to my many lates and absents, the panel actually wanted to down grade me. from C to D. thank God for my supervisor who plead for me, i still can have a C. i can't imagine how will i feel if i got a warning letter for getting a D. i think i will feel very demoralise. but i felt sad because i fear. i am lost in this project. i don't know what to do. and compared to other groups in the class. mine is like the worst. i can't see any of them badder that us. i don't want to fail this leh, if not i need to repeat the whole year. FYP is a one year module. if i fail the first semester, i gotta repeat the whole year, just for this. i don't want this to happen. super boring.

dull is also because of this FYP thingy. instead of doing our project, i just stare at the screen for msn chatting with friends and its games. relax? nah. boring. but i thank God for this thing called fellowship, which made my day fun! had lunch with vina, ben(jamin) and reagan. this is the first time we had lunch together in a school day. and they blame me for not realising it earlier that we can actually have lunch together. bleah. we encouraged each other. we share jokes about birds in the sky and fishes in the fish tank. and it was great! we decided to have it more often. like everyday? as much as we can. but it's not a very good idea also ya? we musn't neglect our own friends also. after lunch back to the dull stuff again. but after the dull stuff was fun thing again! went to the garden where we have our prayer group every wednesday to wait for ben, with vina and reagan. and we saw a couple *ahem* :p. btw, thats not the fun thing. when ben came, we head off to PS and visited trumpet praise. after that we head back home. it was a short time together but it was a good one too. hee.

okay. back to work. oh. don't know what can i do. haha.
byeee.

give me chance..

2007-06-21T03:11:00.000+08:00

i want to take more photos.

movie mania.

not enough.

girls sento.

not enough.

i want to take more photos!

and videos!

so fun.

give me chance leh.

reason behind

2007-06-18T00:56:00.000+08:00

i think we already have enough problems.
and i don't want to create more.
so. i feel that.
the best way to solve our problems is to avoid it.
flee from temptations.

and i hope this can be an example to be followed.

it's been 5 years...

2007-06-04T22:03:00.000+08:00

that i cook my own fried rice

wanna try?

heh heh.

*ps: i am not a hygienic person ;)

Get to know yourself better

2007-06-04T12:36:00.000+08:00

(click on title to take the test)

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

lesson learnt ...

2007-05-29T22:30:00.000+08:00

take note of the bus number before you board the bus.
:(

Jesus loves me

2007-05-28T15:24:00.000+08:00

finally, baby tingwei is back after so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so (haha) long. went home after executive leader's meeting at josh's grandma wake last night. she was crying badly. got tears lo. poor thing. haha. after 'scoldings' from her mum she finally drinks her milk. so cute when she's not crying.

den time to sleep! as usual she wants to sleep only on her hammock(yes! i found the word). but it still not easy to make her sleep. her mum thought she's asleep so she went outside to watch tv. within a minute she ~~cries~~ screams again. haha. want my sis to rest and i want to play with baby, i volunteered to help her coax tingwei to sleep (actually i wanna sleep early also).

i patted her den i see her slooooooowly fell asleep. i stopped and ogle at her. she opened her eyes and stare (exaggeration) at me. she's like "hmmm. wassup. don't be lazy. pat me!" i tried to ignore a few times but the moment her face changes i had to admit defeat and do what she likes. haha. even so, i enjoyed it. heeee. i bagan to sing 'Jesus loves me' as i continue to pat her. then i tried to stop singing but continue patting. she showed me that face again. oh well.

so i assumed i have to continue to sing and pat her pi gu. this time i stopped patting but continue to sing. heh heh. my trick worked. 15mins plus/minus. she's asleep. so cute. she's even cuter when she's asleep. when i got up in the morning she's still asleep lo. i was waiting for her to open her eyes. so the first person she see today is gonna be me! yay~~~ but it didnt happen la. haha.

now she's went back home again. i'm missing her. i wanna sing to her again. haha. when can i see her again?

Jesus loves me!

This I know, for the Bible tells me so

Little ones to Him belong

They are weak but He is strong

Yes, Jesus loves me!

The Bible tells me so

Jesus loves me!

He who died, Heaven's gate to open wide

He will wash away my sin

Let His little child come in

Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
The Bible tells me so

Jesus loves me!

Loves me still, when I'm very weak and ill

From His shining throne on high

Comes to watch me where I lie

Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
The Bible tells me so

Jesus loves me!

He will stay, close beside me all the way

He's prepared a home for me

And some day His face I'll see

Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
The Bible tells me so

tingwei-siao. (fanatic)

2007-05-21T01:08:00.000+08:00

fren says: so .. who u siaoing over now ?

me says: siaoing over tingwei

fren says: and who is that ? ting wei .. wait wait .. i go yahoo find ..

me says: haha ting wei is >>>>>>>>>

and those arrows were pointing to

LOL

Untitled-7

2007-05-19T03:52:00.001+08:00

yay! finally i'm back here.

this was a busy week with lotsa assignments due lo.. three.. a lot? one presentation one report one reflection journal. and also i'm helping orrrh-li-na to type her teaching materials.. haha.. extra earnings.. i think i nv had such busy sch week like this before.. wa~ but still i managed to complete all my assignments.. teegee! (thank God) i thought i'm gonna die doing them lo.. hahaha :p

so tired.. but before i go.. i gonna present THIS(look below) to u!

Untitled-7, originally uploaded by chococacola.

click on the picture to go to the page hor.. can see got notes there :D

(i'm so broken english and singlish today. hahaha)

"that's so mean"

2007-05-08T01:50:00.000+08:00

i don't know how you felt about that comment.

but please understand that i don't wish to see people being hurt by people's jokes about themselves,
or others to have a wrong impression of the victim.
the jokes you all make, wasn't just a joke, but one that hurts many.
so please control.

making fun of your friend don't benefit your friendship with one another.
it don't build you up, but rather bring yourself and your friends down.

i told you that is not that i want to piss you off or condemn your weakness.
but trying to make you realise that this is not Jesus wants us to do.

i don't know if this is the right thing to do,
and i don't know if i'm using the right words,
sorry if this sounds too _____ (fill in the blank),
cause i don't know what other ways i can make this message clearer.

and i don't know if you are reading this.
if you do, please know that i care,
not to stumble you, but acting as a support.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

2007-04-23T08:42:00.000+08:00

en en LOOYEE~
enjoy your last year being a teenager!
i pray that our Father in heaven will fulfill your desires. and that He will give you strength to walk your daily journey - at home, in school, and the path that He is leading you. hee.
thank you for being my en en. haha. hope we will be able to find more time together during this final year. photo taking sessions~ sento session~ k-ing~ and more~ let's have fun! hahaha =P

GORDON~
haha. since your birthday is only one day after looyee's birthday, shun bian lo :P
enjoy your last year as a teenage boy too! haha
my prayer for you is that He will also give you strength to walk around nee soon. and that you will not lose your focus on Him. and desires be fulfilled! =D
thanks for being my friend. haha. hope that we will be able to know each other more. let's work together for God, for Culture. hee.

haha. got to run. project mate scolding le. haha =X

shut up

2007-04-22T23:03:00.000+08:00

give me peace and serenity, please.
i can't take the noise inside there,
it's too heavy for me.

photos of my niece !

2007-04-20T15:50:00.000+08:00

~ angelic baby ~

~ sleeping xiaozhu ~

(my first self-made emoticon!!)

~ ting wei ~

décevoir

2007-04-18T22:44:00.000+08:00

if you hate him, you hate me.
if you hate me, you hate him.
you hate us, you hate the one who has once saved you.

what can i do?
what can i say?

i wish i could not worry.
i wish.

i'm an aunt!

2007-04-11T23:46:00.000+08:00

hee~ isn't she cute? dimple on each side of her cheeks! she is gonna be a pretty girl like me her mum (my erjie) next time when she grow up. :P

i'm so excited for this newborn. can't wait to see her grow. and my dajie too! who has already visited them this evening.

oh. what's her name? for the time being, xiao zhu. haha.. it's not confirm yet, fill you in with all the other information next time.

can't wait to visit xiao zhu and her parents tmr! tee hee~

do not read this

2007-03-27T15:50:00.000+08:00

if you don't have a strong heart,
or if you're in a very good mood,
or if you're already very troubled.

sometimes i wonder,
"do they really care?"
talking behind me or even infront of me,
saying they are discussing how can they help this person,
and not actually doing anything about it, i think it's just
sheer ~~gossip~~ hypocrite.

sorry to say that, cause
i'm putting a false front too,
i am not ok.
sometimes there were just too much to say,
that i don't know how to say.
"ask her share with us, she always say ok lo"
you might say that, but please kindly
putyourselfinmysituation,
and you'll get it.

excuse, self-pity, or whatever.
or you don't even know what i'm talking about.
exit from here.
i just wanna say what i'm feeling.
and it's ~~quite~~ very pathetic to say this in a blog, huh.

if you really care, show me, please.
i need them. and please,
don't just for the convenience of saying, tell me "pray"
i know! and i'm already doing so.
and oh! for goodness' sake,
let me know who you are.
don't give me names like annoymous,
very irritating!
i hope i'm not asking for too much,
i just wanna make some clarification.

if you don't, i'm very glad to say thanks,
your silence is being honoured.
you're still my friend.

don't be offended if you wanna help me after reading this,
and i'm not giving you a damn.
you're just not the person whom i trust.

please understand i'm not referring to everbody, but some.
i think i'm finished with what i wanna say.
thanks everyone for reading all these thoughts of mine.
i don't really expect many to even come this page,
let alone to read it.
till then.

i want my

2007-03-26T03:16:00.000+08:00

photo session !!
photo session !!
photo session !!
photo session !!
photo session !!
photo session !!
photo session !!
photo session !!
photo session !!

so bored~

2007-03-25T04:36:00.000+08:00

finished - those six lessons of typing! heh.

been feeling sucky for the past few days, not when im with my dear friends - sis/bro - sweethearts though. :p service wasnt over for long and i'm missing them already.

this is the message that i've received.
if it is what i thought, thanks, i can move on.
if not, u're gonna be the one getting the message.
gonna hurt, but it's like
a knife on the heart, would u choose to leave it there,
or pull it out?
i will and i can, do it.

and when my world is falling down
in U i will be found
i'm staying in Ur arms today

(and u shout) always!
always and forever~
:)

i am craving for ~

2007-03-22T05:09:00.000+08:00

photos!! nice scenery nice people
sun!! tan
running/swimming/cycling!! i just crave for it
real laughter!! (:

2007-03-07T08:21:00.001+08:00

my apology.

2007-02-24T03:40:00.000+08:00

i can't sleep
i can't say how much i miss you
i can't say how much i want to be with you
this is the 26th time that i want to give up giving up
can i

2007-02-22T21:00:00.000+08:00

only u can sound harsh,
i cant.
concluded.

2007-02-22T02:48:00.000+08:00

i'm in danger !!

haha.. i was just kylie's devil hand la~ haha!

had fun today!

i heart them

and we should take more pics when my face is healed!
by using ....

according to that dunno wat law,

i cannot show the brand of the product.

i think.

neh heh

2007-02-15T11:00:00.000+08:00

could it be any harder~ harder~
woohoo~
hahahaha.. exams over ya!!!!!

(its actually 5:14am now)

2007-02-14T14:57:00.000+08:00

people dont understand
& i dont wanna explain
(i dun wish to hear that again)

happy v day !
(:

2007-02-09T03:00:00.000+08:00

roar.
i hate u for being u.
i hate myself for being myself.
get lost.

& dont ask me why.

2007-01-31T14:37:00.000+08:00

Dear God
It's me again down here
Don't wanna sound insincere
I'm lost
Sometimes you're so unclear
What can I do?
I'm feeling so far from you
Frustrated
Irritated
Disconnected from it all
The weight of the world
Has pushed me to the wall

I surrender
To you I'm giving in
Come take me
Save me
I want to start again
I'll open my broken heart
'Cause I've reached the end and
You are the way to begin

I've seen a million empty smiles
Living in denial
I don't wanna live like that
When nothing's real
I hate how it is to feel
Frustrated
Irritated
Disconnected from it all
I'm breaking
I'm aching for something beautiful

I surrender
To you I'm giving in
Come take me
Save me
I want to start again
I'll open my broken heart
'Cause I've reached the end and
You are the way to begin

All the riches in this world
Couldn't fill this great big hole
It takes something so much more
Only you can take me
You can make me whole

2007-01-30T04:07:00.000+08:00

blame everything on me, its my fault to make it cut so deep.

2007-01-13T13:56:00.000+08:00

happy new year !! =p

preacher came.. and told me "you'll be like Moses" another came and said " i see tribes around you".. my leaders and peers they see me as a women of faith - not now or then but gonna be.. all i have to do is to let Him fly this kite.. string will not be entangle or break.. but fly high.

how do i carry on?
lost hope lost faith lost fire lost direction
i'mLOST

how to make things right again?
dun seek dun care dun do anything
i'm aREBEL

i'm sorry.

2006-12-07T03:34:00.000+08:00

lecture was so boring that..

we did this..

ate this..

took this and..

make this !!

2006-11-28T15:45:00.000+08:00

oh oh.. sense that somethg is coming..
lets hope tt wat i tot is just my duo xin.. haha

2006-11-23T21:32:00.000+08:00

yo all! i have a joke to share~ lalala~

me: someone ask who is muhammad ali?
fren: boxing champ
me: hahaha.. no wonder.. tt time i say soccer player.. they loled
fren: hahaha
me: not meh? last time play for sg de..
fren: izzit.. i first time hear.. haha
me: i remb wrgly? haha
fren: that 1 fandi ahmad?
me: oh! ahha

haha.. so pai seh.. since when muhammad ali become sg's top football player?
haha.. im so cute!

2006-11-05T00:28:00.000+08:00

i had fun and i enjoyed myself today =D
- youth day out

what wrong has she done?
not being able to be accepted by you?
shouldn't you just shut up or say good points of her instead of bad points?
why do you have to tell a person something about her that don't really concern this person?
and now this person is just like you, making fun of her (notinaniceway)? right infront of her.
even though she might not understand, but what if she understands what all those meant one day?
all she wants is acceptance in this place, a place where acceptance can be found.
could this be a reason that she feels jealous of anything she should have yet none of you is giving her?
could this be a reason that is holding me down?
now is just a few of us, and this is happening.
what is going to happen when we grows bigger?

whatever you gonna say. this is what i thought i should voice it out.
not gonna mention names though.

2006-10-15T04:26:00.000+08:00

some thots of the day..

wat the guy said is it really true?
if yes, wow! he is a nice guy,
but y can he fall in love so easily?
if not, he can be a storyteller
who needs more creativity

am i gonna to be laughed at if they see tt?
caused i laughed at my frens who did wat they done
hope they will not notice tt
or wat i tot i have done didnt really happen

was i speaking real soft?
or i didnt speak tt loud for my voice to be heard?
hmmm.. abt 20cm away, ear mouth distance
i repeated myself a few times
i speak too soft?
anyway it was just a simple question, doesnt matter if tt person heard it or not

...

2006-10-07T21:49:00.000+08:00

ladies and gentlemen, let me introduce them to you
my erjie and erjiefu *claps*
(yes! i have another sister)

today is her birthday
(HAPPY BIRTHDAY ErJie!!!)
haha.. and my 1st time doing a errrr.. chesseboard?
nice right?
haha. yup =)

2006-09-26T15:14:00.000+08:00

sometimes when i wanna talk, do people really listen?
then they ask me,
shangmin, why are u so quiet?
but when i wanna tell them somethings, they are not listening.
so what am i supposed to do?

my peers
don't come to me with a motive
and please appreciate my help if i have done so

now, don't ask me what happened
i am not sure of what is happening too

2006-08-25T03:42:00.000+08:00

so therefore, the conclusion is,
he is a false.

2006-08-24T03:32:00.000+08:00

current listening - Incomplete (the FULL version) - Backstreet Boys

haha.. oh well.

sigh~ im so dead.. started revising for this tp only slightly before 12 and till now i think i rested for more than 2hrs.. hai yo.. so dead so dead!

just reminded of something i did a few years ago.. when i was STILL young..
then i am into irc.. got a chance to chat with strangers.. ha..

once, a guy pm-ed me and ask me wats my height and weight.. and dunno wat i was thinking at tt time.. i replied 150 60 (some short and heavy numbers.. forgot liao).. den before he replied i asked him "u mind?"
and he said YES and left..

CHEY!!!

haha.. suddenly dunno wat to say.. ok ok.. gtg.. continue doing my eleventh hour work..
& my holidays gonna start the moment the 'invilgilator' collect my paper.. YAY!

2006-08-18T13:52:00.000+08:00

this pic was taken in april, somewhere near bugis.

so nice!!!

fell in love with street art. gonna hunt for more of these during the hols! ha!

if im not wrong, this cat is drawn by gerbil

haha. cool killer gerbil too!

2006-08-18T11:54:00.000+08:00

no mind block.
able to answer all questions.
yeah! one down.
one bubble tea as a reward :p

2006-08-17T05:35:00.000+08:00

boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring !!! ah!
im so bored~ so bored~ so bored~ so bored~
for the past 3 whole days i have been staying at home. other than going downstairs to buy some food. and it was not even 1hr. ah~ in fact more than 3 days! since sunday night to now(5:37am). ah!!! where are my friends, man?

exam grand opening in less than 30hours time. ah . . . soon!
still have lots to prepare.. and i still cant sleep!

hai.. where's the mood? it is not even the beginning and already im thinking of (oh.. Mari Kita playing on radio now) the beginning after the end.

feel so sick. staying at home. watching tv. doing past year papers.
ah. i need sun. i need some fresh air. i need to perspire.

hmmmm.. 20 mins! if im still awake, im gonna go out and walk around. take pics. ha! deal!

perhaps i am just feeling lonely
i miss you, the one who will be with me at this hour
the one who will not let me have a chance to think like this
the one i have been waiting for so long, and still is
good morning all =)

2006-08-14T23:25:00.000+08:00

oh oh. i misunderstood my papa.

some time around last week, i overheard my ah mah and papa conversation in hokkien, asking her not to listen to "him". & i thought he was trying to dis-persuade her from water baptizing.
how can he do this? he wants to water baptize but he is telling her not to. how can he tell her not to listen to the pastor?

but just now, she said that she is worrying that nobody "dia hoon" (? dunno wat.. ancestor thgy?) den he.. (hmmm.. suddenly forgot wat he said. but from wat i can remember) he told ah mah,
"dun be afraid that others would be laughing at u, ..."
"(some relatives) also never worship idols, they are christians, nothing happened to them"

oh oh. haha.. misunderstanding.. pai seh :p

::: lesson for the day :::
see la! hokkien half pail of water dun anyhow think

to think about it, i saw something that is different in him, the joy that is written on his face,
and this is the result of his decision he made yesterday, baptism.
hahahaha. Praise the Lord!

however, ah mah didnt choose to do that, under too much stress i think. from her children and siblings. and those dead have no food to eat? haha.
cant blame her also, so i think we just have wait for God's timing, and perhaps then, mama korkor erjie+erjie fu and people around us will received salvation too. Amen!

2006-08-12T05:17:00.000+08:00

he, likes her,
wants to know her more,
yet nothing he done.
so she, _

she, wants to be close with Him, love Him,
yet nothing she did.
so He, _

2006-08-06T03:26:00.000+08:00

i can't comprehend
{ her; him; them; us; &me}

2006-08-04T00:53:00.000+08:00

it was sweet. it was a dream.

2006-07-22T01:07:00.000+08:00

hey! just wanna say i miss my sec sch life~ walking around the compound and greeting my teachers and frens with a "hello", passing familiar faces, hanging outside the staff room chit chatting with teachers, going out with my gang, running ard, pe, music lesson, clarinet, foot drills, making fun behind teachers, the classroom setting, and even singing the national anthem, the pledge, sch song, wearing school uniform and white shoes white socks!~ wahhhh~ miss them lots!

do u think ur money is very big? must go to henderson from ngee ann poly, to bring back ur lap top, and bring it back home, just bcos u wanna go out? dun u think u r VERY unreasonable? i can only leave sch ard 10 and u wan me to do u that favour? haiya.. dun say so much le.. ppl might think im being the one tt is not helpful, abit of task oso wan to complain so much.
watever la.. im the one who has done wrong.

2006-06-20T04:29:00.000+08:00

first was too sad to sleep.
now too excited to sleep.
haha. i wanna dance!

2006-05-12T12:40:00.000+08:00

tu me manques
tu me manques
tu me manques

espérer tout à l'heure

2006-05-09T21:41:00.000+08:00

here is a scenario..

[ imagine u & a fren whom u have been spending times of bumming and joking-s and sharing with.. and u expect this frenship will grow.. & one day,, u realised tt this person began to treat u like a stranger.. but still normal with the others.. ]

how would u feel? wat would u do?

i dunno wat have i done to make this happen to me.. a fren whom u joke ard with,, go hang ard with,, and sometimes encourage u,, one day treats u like a stranger..

oh no.. this is happening,, again.

is this another reason for me to stay with gals & dun be close frens with boys?

did i do somethg wrg? or i'm just over sensitive?

I AM SO BLESSED !!

2006-04-30T01:30:00.000+08:00

at this moment of time.. i just wanna say.. I AM SO BLESSED !! thank God !!

but Father Lord.. can i ask that u will oso take away their hurts.. cus every hurts tt they went thru were gone.. & now tt i understand wat they hv went thru.. help me not to lose my patience with them.. help me to show them love.. help me to do thgs which can help them to release their grudges for anyone who has once hurt them..

thanks for my sis whom i oways complain abt.. & my aunt who is staying over at my hse tonight..

(ok.. bye bye emo thoughts~)

:):)